Mother/Daughter Differences Revisited

Have I mentioned my mother drives me absolutely crazy?

We are such different people, my mother and me. She has skipped right back into the swing of things...making plans, taking over, making all the decisions. She doesn't really want my input so why does she even bother to ask me? Now she wants to go out to lunch after the service next Sunday. When I asked if my friend, Tam, could come my mother, true to form, said she wanted it to be only family. What the hell does she think Tam is? I'm not talking about a partner. Tam is my oldest friend. Well, I am friendly with some people who are older than Tam. Oh, you know what I mean. We've been friends over 20 years and have decided we are different-skinned sisters separated at birth. But, no, we can't let anybody else in, can we? If she wants to live her life like that, she'd better well plan on not having ME pick up the slack...it ain't gonna happen.

How can so much of my family so successfully separate their emotions from everything else they experience in the world? How can one call that living?? Me, I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything today. I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I am completely done in and have nothing more to give to anyone right now. I think I'm actually going to lay down and take a nap. Let Mom make all the decisions while I'm asleep and I'll see what she's done when I get up. Yes, I think a nap is all I have the heart for today. Unlike my mother.